SHE'S MORE THAN JUST HER WEIGHT

 

She bends down and 

breathes heavily as she 

prays that the belly pouch just vanishes away

She avoids mirrors 

So she could avoid the body she doesn't want to see 

She  buys clothes online 

So she doesn't have to deal with the embarrassment she possesses for herself 

She tucks her stomach in when someone tries to click a picture 

So she hates herself a little less

She looks at  her body in disgust 

Never to realize

Her weight isn't her definition

Neither does the centimeters between her thighs define her

Her weight isn't the entirety of her 

Her body is more than just her weight 

She doesn't realize that

Her body is the vessel through which she is supposed to witness this world 

Her body that she hates right now is the same body she will have once she gets to her desired size 

She looks at  her body in disgust 

Never to realize 

She has to be healthy not thin

She has to take care of herself 

She has to be kind to herself  

Rather than hating and starving herself 

She doesn't realize 

The group of teenagers that laughed out when she walked past them didn't laugh at her 

But its the insecurity of hers that made her the clown in the circus she didn't wanna be in

She doesn't realize

 her weight isn't her definition

Neither does the centimeters between her thighs define her

-GARIMA SUBEDI