Music of fire

 

I wish I could be one of those people
All "nonchalant," all "I don't care."
But the depth of my heart
And the horizon of my soul
Are far too profound to be as shallow as that—
Truly, a curse in disguise.

Every choice I make in this generation
Makes me feel like
I'm the epitome of bad decisions,
But in reality all I'm doing is
Letting my emotions flow
In the fluency of the language of love.

Must be so cool to be unbothered,
Because the universe designed me in such a way
That I would rather feed you my flesh
With a smile on my face
Than watch you starve.

I try to run
From love, from feelings, from closeness and closure,
But somehow I find myself dancing in the music of fire
That I call love.

I once heard this song:
"I wanna go deep but nobody wanna go there with me,"
And it pinched my soft heart
That longs to be held in soft, warm arms.

—Garima Subedi