LIGHT

 

Been in the dark

now, dark seems to comfort me,

Dark eases things for me,

and lets me live in my imagination

I'm not happy, but neither am I sad 

choosing dark, although my heart craves happy 

cause the choice of happy would make me vulnerable

"Vulnerable to what? Sad?"

Yes, but you see sad isn't a loner 

Sad brings additional guests 

UNINVITED GUESTS 

While sad itself was invited out of obligation

sad invites anxiety, depression said "I'd love to tag along"

self-loathe and self-harm are overdressed to join in

While light 

light is discomfort itself

It shows me reality

while I've been living in my imagination 

the reality where I hate who I am

the reality I don't wanna face,

Or should I say the reality I have no courage to face 

the reality that aches my limbs and leaves me sore,

the reality I don't wanna live 

-Garima Subedi