Trust

 

As free as I might feel 

Or laugh as loud as I can 

That undying fear screams from the crypts of my soul

It screams and these walls talk to me

These walls tell me not to let them down 

They tell me to keep everything intact 

Them falling apart will make me fall apart ,they say

The last time I didn't listen to them they were correct 

They said to keep my guard up this time

They said to stay intact ,they said don't trust 

Those chains that hide behind these walls 

They remind me how crippled I used to be 

They shriek and rattle in my ears 

They say they pity me 

They laugh at my gullibility

They tell me that I'll be tied right back 

The moment these walls fall

So how could you tell me that I can count on you 

When these Walls constantly ring warning bells at me

They tell me this laughter and freedom 

They can fade away if you let me down

Those chains stare at me like hyenas waiting for their prey to die 

They glare at me in awe

How could I possibly trust you 

When the last time I took the risk 

My walls could no more protect me 

When I was stripped naked and dressed in chains 

When I had pure intentions 

But my laughter and freedom was confiscated 

-Garima Subedi