Depression

Peek inside me and you shall fine

all the chaos that resides in my mind

all the reckless memories i couldn't leave behind 

The anxieties are piled up but in a line 

It feels like a black hole, or I don't know something like a cyclone

The more I avoid it, it feels more grown 

I don't know what peace tastes like or happiness sound like

Or am I just treating feelings like objects,

Is that fine?

Staying alone isn't anyone's favorite thing to do 

But slight ups and downs in interactions makes me loose all the clue 

I'm just helpless and there's no one who could help me

I'm just lost in myself or does everyone just let me be?

I don't enjoy being sad over the stupidest things to exist 

If I'd mention  them it'd make a very long list 

I'm not asking for sympathy or any kind of attention

I just want to feel comfortable around people without tension 

It's difficult to keep going when you have to fight yourself everyday 

It's difficult to fight the world when you don't feel well

It' always feels like I'm very ill

I can't help but feel this way and then end up staying still

In the beginning, it just felt like a negligible anxiety

Difficulties came in when it started growing like a contagious disease or cancer 

I feel fatigue and I self loathe Myself everytime 

I hope I'll be able to come out from this tough time

*Anxious people aren't pretending and is a problem to look for. Let's help and be helped *

                                                            -garima subedi